Thursday, October 18, 2007
Dandiya - And the Stories Continue...
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Dandiya
But all that's going to change this Friday night when for the first time I'll be performing Dandiya/Garba as a part of a group for the office. Really how the final product going to look like???
Have played Dandiya a couple of times before and know a bit of Garba :) Been practicing a lot...at least or the last of couple of days. Now just hoping everything falls in place properly... But no one falls :)
So let see what we can do on the 19th of October :)
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
The World Through the Pages of a Book
Very often you find yourself on a journey with Bilbo Baggins or Frodo and Sam in their quest to destroy the one ring. Not forgetting Harry, Hermione and Ron's quest to find and destroy Voldemort's Hocrux. You travel through different universes with Lyra and Will, even cutting through the fabric of time. You are transported to era when you were not even born. You travel through life with Amir and Gogol. Through cities and places, that you haven't been to and may never go to.
But not all these worlds are magical and enchanted. There is pain and suffering in many of these of world. Invariably there is loss and death. Tragedy and grieving. Heinous events like rape, murder, death, massacre, savagery and war.
You live in the world created within each page. You share the character's sorrow and pain, joys and frustration.
Feelings & Emotions
There are times when you are surrounded with friends and all of a sudden you feel lonely and depressed and you just want to be alone. The idea of hanging about with friends is to get rid of these emotions and feelings. But all of the sudden all you want is to be alone. And you actually can't recollect what triggered this reaction, when you asked for an explanation from irritated friends.
Then when you meet up with someone. You go to the trouble of messaging the person, trying to co-ordinate everything, even willing to travel. And all this person does is say they are lazy and don't like travelling. They also don't reply to messages promptly or pick up your calls. All this leaves you irritated, fuming, angry, and you swear you will never call them again. But the next thing you know you are calling up this person, because you really want to.
Sometime I really wonder what my emotion & feelings get me to do :(
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
Ratatouille
Well then let me introduce you to Remy, the four legged rodent, who actually prefers walking on two as he doesn't like tasting his feet in his food. Who has taste for the gourmet meal and will simply not eat garbage. Someone who can tell spices from each other (something that not even I can do). Someone who lives in Paris and dreams of being a chef. Someone who adorably cute and reminded me of doggie when he made those cute innocent faces.
Ratatouille is the story of Remy and his dream of being a chef. Helping a hapless Linguini along the way, collaborating with him to make splendid dishes (which are finest moments), as well as his true inheritance. Also winning over food critic Anton Ego (marvelously voiced by Peter O'Toole) who was responsible for the restaurant loosing it's credibility. All this aided by the great chef Gusteau, a figment of Remy's imagination and the line "Anyone can Cook".
Never in the million year would I thought that I would find a rat in the kitchen so appealing. But every dish, every ingredient, comes to life. Even when Remy tasting two things the firework representing what the ingredient brings you is absolutely delightful. Sitting in the audience you taste, smell and want what Remy cooks up.
There are moment where you'll simply go aww or just cheer Remy. But there moments that will also creep you out especially when you see the entire rat colony. But then it when the entire rat colony that helps Remy and in turn Linguini in the climax that makes the whole movie great and also gives the movie it's finest moment.
The finale is absolutely a delight with Remy not only managing to win over Anton Ego but at the same time make the food critic remember his mother's preparation. Something that I long for.
Coming out of the theater I couldn't help but have the a broad of smile on face. Thoroughly entertained by cute, squeaky rat. I guess that's what I go to the movies for. Definitely recommend the movie. So till then Bon Apetit.
Monday, August 27, 2007
Marriage & Relationships
At times, hearing this question makes you wonder whether we are born just to get married and invite all these aunties and friends to the celebration? Is marriage a necessary part of life? What exactly do we look for in a marriage? Time and again we are reminded that man is a social animal. But then does marriage forms a part of this socialising? Is marriage an important part of life?
We seek companionship in life. As a person I know I like being around friends and people I love and care about. Loneliness can be a very treacherous friend, often pushing you down the depths of despair and depression. Often eating you up.
Often we seek out people who could bear witness to our lives. A person to love and care. Someone to call our own, but not own. Being in love can be quite an exhilarating feeling. But how long will this feeling last? What happens when the magic runs out? Is there really a happily ever after?
I remember mentioning this in my toast for my parent's silver wedding anniversary that being together for 28 years (that's when we managed to celebrate their silver anniversary) was quite an achievement. Imagine loving and caring for the same person all these year is quite an inspiration. But do I feel inspired by this is another question.
I know relationship and being in love is somewhat a part of life. Whether its loving someone of the opposite sex or the same sex. But then how do we know we know we are ready for long-term relationship? I know I have failed miserably on these grounds in the past. I know of friends and family member who don't feel the need of being marriage and prefer staying single and drawing happiness from their single hood. They draw happiness and love from the people around them.
Sometime I wonder if I will ever be ready for a relationship, let alone marriage. I know there are times in a relationship when you can feel really great about it and there are time you can feel totally uncomfortable about it. I guess that's part of life. I sometime wonder whether I will ever be comfortable being myself.
There is so many question and no answer and solution in sight. Is there really any solution for these question?. Anyway till then I'll be a Bachelor Boy and that's the way I'll stay. :)
Friday, August 17, 2007
Celebrating 60 Years Of Independence
Even though I've trekked before, a numerous amount of time when I was in boarding school. And I have been to forts like Lohgad and Raigad. Nothing in this world could have prepared me for this trek. The first problem was getting to the place. There was problem trying to pronounce the Base village (which was Valhe, by the way). This raised a bigger problem trying to find a bus that went there as we had one great difficulty pronouncing the village name. Somehow we did managed to get there. The initial part of the trek seem all nice and fun. Passing fields and cattle and little streams, getting your feet wet in the cool water. Taking pictures of the scenery. At all times adrenaline pumping at the sight of the fort covered by clouds.
But then that was the good part. Our problem was trying to decipher which path to follow (as no one thought it would be wise enough to put signs to point the right directions). Then there was problem getting lost and meeting people who were lost themselves (however never thinking of sticking with them so that all could find the proper path together). Climbing what looked like path of a small stream, then trying to scale upward holding on to grasses and trees. Snapping branches, slipping down loose mud and rocks. The rain not making our task any easier. Getting totally muddy, totally dirty (which actually was least of worries). Hanging on to grass and branches, if they could take our weight, our determination to reach the top almost diminishing with every slide we were taking. There a part of me that thought that I would end there or would need someone to come and rescue me. And then I would put my story in the Reader's Digest under the true incident section. Anyway screaming at people for direction and meeting another pair who were as lost as us, we finally found what we could call proper path, with the occasional steps. Somehow we managed to make it to the top.
Breathless, tired, thirsty, hungry, dirty, we finally made it to the top. Gave a huge yell reaching the main gate. Felt like I just conquered my Everest. Remarkably managed to get a network on cell up on that mountain. Wished my Mumma, Grandpa, and Godma, and also a good friend of mine, wishing them from over 3000 feet. It was really emotional wishing them as there was part of which only recently thought I would have never hear their voice again.
Now the other daunting task was reaching the base again. Since we didn't have the energy and the mist didn't help make thing clearer, we decided to come down with another group. Trust me the trip getting down was obviously not at all easy. Had a whole lot of scare getting down slipper rocks. Trying to get foothold, holding on to the pipe railing (this became a dangerous when there were gaps between railing). Anyhow made it down, slipping and sliding, soiling clothes, footwear and bag in the process. Pitying the poor knees that was taking all the body weight. Finally getting down and washing ourselves in the cool, flowing water. Giving a thought of those who may have gotten lost among the trees in the mountain.
Reaching down, realizing how lucky we were to make it to the top safely. All the dangers we had put ourselves into. The adventure that we had, the scare of lives that we had. Finally glad to live to see a new day. Moreover grateful for the experience, for the adventure, for the story that we now have to tell the generations to come. Looking forward to another trek :)
Monday, August 13, 2007
Chak De India
One thing for sure I am neither a great fan of Hindi cinema and definitely not a fan of Shah Rukh Khan. What drew me towards the movie was the reviews of the movie that I had read earlier in the morning, and the intriguing thought of watching a sport based film on a sport that hasn't gotten it's due, in spite being the national sport, and female team that's never given prominence. So anyway went for the movie which had a 15 minute delay, which meant that the movie would end well beyond midnight and I would have to find a way of trying to get back home all by myself. All this time questioning whether it was right way of spending time and money. I have seen a number of sport based movies like Lagaan, Angels in the Outfield, Jerry McGuire (which did have sport theme to it), and Bring it On (even though this is about cheer leaders). So I had a good idea of what to expect. Moreover I did play the game when I was in the boarding school.
Well the movie began with Mr. Khan been shown made as an outcast for missing a crucial penalty against none other than Pakistan (wonder what did the Italian do to Roberto Baggio for missing that crucial peanlty at the world cup). Anyway things pick up a bit when each of the girls are introduced, each coming from various states including Jharkhand. You have the typical cat fights and the Diva attitudes, quarrels and squabbles. And between all this you have a committee who feels like Indian women should not be running around running in their knickers, but should be holding a rolling pin instead of a hockey stick. There are characters that you immediately fall in love with like the dimmunitive, fire cracker Komal from Harayana, the very manly hot headed Punjaban (can't remember her name), and the two girls from Jharkhand who couldn't speak English, let alone understand Hindi. Then there was the most senior player Kunjan (as we are reminded repeatedly throughout the movie) who you want to whack with her hockey stick because of her attitude that is typical of a senior player in any sport. Well there is also Vidya, the married team captain and it's goalie and Preeti, who is engaged to the Indian cricket team's vice captain, who doesn't think much of the sport (which pretty typical of our fatted, over payed Indian cricketers). There are other characters that aren't given much scope.
Well the first half is how the girls are learning to gel with each other and to play the game for the country and rather than individually. A sought of high point in this half is the girls getting into a brawl with guys at McDonald for eve teasing one of the fellow players. This even dominates the match of the sexes against their male counterpart in order to decide whether the girls get to go abroad for the world championship.
The second half is where the things actually pick up when they actually play at the championship. Initially totally un-co-ordinated and loosing miserably, but slowly and steadily getting their act together. Then you also have the friction between Preeti and Komal. But finally, as you know they will iron out their differences. Then there is also Kunjan trying to seduce the coach with regards to becoming the captain. But all is well that ends well. The part where Preeti equalises in the dying minutes thanks to Komal is pretty good. During the penalty shootout you can feel the anguish when the team misses the goal or the esctacy when Komal, Kunjan, and the Mizoram player convert their penalties. But the final goal that Vidya saves is probably the most tense moment in the movie. The funny thing is that you know what is going to happen, but even then when it happens all you want to do is cheer for the team and clap (which I did along with the others in the hall).
When I left the movie hall after the movie got over, well beyond midnight, didn't mind walking all by myself back home, in the cold night, as I just enjoyed a good Adrenaline pumping movie. Time and money well spent :)
Sunday, August 12, 2007
Crossing Bridges
But anyway I did needed to get back home, to my bed, for some sleep, though I didn't want to move from the centre of the bridge. Because it's during this solitude I can ponder what's gone by, if what I've done is right or wrong?? Or even scold myself for being foolish. Anyway did cross this bridge. I know there will be a number of bridges that I would need to cross. Some I will and some I will continue to wonder if I need to cross. And some I may just turn back and return. but I know till then I will continue to live my life pondering whether what I've done is right or wrong.
Friday, August 10, 2007
Dance Session
Firstly there were three different guys instructing on songs that they previously worked on. So it was trying to understand the steps, playing catch up. The steps that they were doing were pretty quick and if you couldn't do them in the same way they were doing, they looked very awkward. Though these guys made it look pretty neat, trust me it wasn't that easy. Felt like a total spaz. Felt like I had two left feet. And trust me I haven't felt like that since Kaytee (my Salsa Guru) taught us step involving the open break.
What surprised me the most is that in spite all the awkwardness and the two left feet, I did enjoy the session. Though didn't like the songs they were using (Since they were playing Hindi film music and me used to listening to English music), started enjoying the music. Lasted the entire session and at the same time managed to sweat it out, which actually was the main aim. :)
Wednesday, August 08, 2007
Kick Boxing @ Gym
Well since I was supposed to my cardio and abs thought why not give the kickboxing session a try, as it will serve as a good cardio session too. Well it was actually pretty good. Initially felt odd and awkward, especially when doing high kick, keeping timing, and coordination. Learnt, or I should say, confirmed that I was directionally impaired. Kept kicking on the wrong side. As a result had to 10 dips, which actually I didn't mind. During the stretching session, where you had spread your feet at least 3 feet, had problems as my shoes weren't providing me the proper grip. So there was always a scare of loosing balance or having a Rodman split. though painful had a good stretch. Also what enjoyed was the combination of kicking and punching (whenever I got the sequence properly) and also the abs session.
It did feel odd when you are making mistake and you can see people from outside looking at you. But in the end it was fun. And yes looking forward to next Tuesday's session.
Monday, August 06, 2007
Dance and Music
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
Are we comfortable in our skin?
As I said I put myself as one of these people. What I wonder is am I comfortable being what I am actually? Am I comfortable being myself? am I superfluous? I know every time I make a choice or take a decision I wonder what would be the consequences on others as well as myself. Though my choices and my decision are mine, but somehow they seems to put everyone in it.
Some time I wonder am I living my own life or am I living a life that's been trying to appeal others? Am I being true to myself? Or am I uncomfortable being me? Am I comfortable being in my own skin?
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
Falling Sick and Friends
Well that's why you have friends for. My friend Vivek took a leave from office and came over to take care of me. Even got prescription from his dad saving me the trouble of going to the doctor and then was there near me if I need anything. Another friend Abhijeet came over made kichdi and kept company with me till Vivek came. He managed to in a way to brighten up a painful day. And finally there was my friend Ashutosh who came over after office with fruits and vegetables in the evening after work and cooked. At the same time he was telling me what to have in order to get all the proteins, minerals, and vitamins that I needed to get over my weakness. and then not forgetting Hrishi who asked me if I wanted him to come over home after he checked his mails at work.
Well I know I would have been in a bad state if it weren't for friends. Well I guess that's why they say..."That's what Friends are for".
Friday, July 27, 2007
Fantasy Epics
I guess movies is what got me reading all these books. I remember after watching the Fellowship of the Ring in the theater I so eagerly wanted to know what happens to Frodo and the ring that it drove me o purchase the book and find out. And I was sure wasn't disappointed. For like the movie the book is highly entertaining (however there are place where the book does drag). Nevertheless I rate this as one of the best books I've read.
Well as for the Chronicle of Narnia I guess what got me reading this book was the fact that though I hadn't watched the movie as yet and was curious to read a book by one of the contemporaries of Tolkien. Also the curiosity about the Christian allegory in the lion Aslan.
Well recently began to read Philip Pullman's Dark Material out of curiosity to learn about the movie that will star one of my favourite female actor Nicole Kidman. Currently finishing the Amber Spyglass and I must say I've not been disappointed.
That brings us to J. K. Rowling and her boy wizard Harry Potter. I must admit that I started reading the series from the third book, The Prisoner of Azakaban, after borrowing the book from friend's sister. But then got hooked on the series and have purchased each and every book and also movie CD anad DVD since then. Recently completed reading the final book. And should say she more than made up for the mediocre (according to me) Half Blood Prince. More action, better plot line, a whole lot of revelation. But in a way you can say no main characters from Harry's side (you know what I mean) dies. I guess she gave her fans what they wanted, and boy did she raked in the mullah in the bargain. However still to watch the current film.
Well from all these books that I've read if I would have to pick up a favourite I would definitely pick up the Lord of the Rings. There is something really great the way Tolkien created his character and in the process created a whole new world (Middle Earth), and the way he kept the reader engrossed through the three books. What's more astonishing is the creation a whole new language in Elven , for the book. Next I would say Philip Pullman's Dark Material. As the name suggested the topic in a way is pretty dark. On first reading the Northern Lights I realised that the book had an anti-church theme to it, and this flowed through the remaining books, that is the Subtle Knife and the Amber Spyglass. But then you got read the book for its content and the literature and not putting your faith in between. If going by all the controversies the Da Vin Code raised I wonder what it would be when the Dark Materials are adapted to movies. Well next is the obvious Harry Potter. For almost seven years I've read about Harry and his friends Ron and Hermoine and their battle with the dark lord Lord Voldemort. The books were definitely interesting, though I felt for two books that Rowling may have lost her charm, but then she redeemed herself with the last book. Well finally comes the C. S. Lewis' chronicle of Narnia. It's not like that I didn't like the look. May major bone of contention is that not all the books are interesting and on the whole the book is not as interesting as the above mentioned ones. Found the book a bit childish. But on the whole not a bad book.
Well these are sorely my views of the books and is not applicable to anyone who reads any of these epics. I know in future the list is definitely going to expand to newer books.
Thursday, July 26, 2007
Pune
But there are things that really perplexes you. Being one of the fastest growing city in the country (not sure in the world), and having some of the well known IT firms and elearning company, the city's infrastructure is pretty bad. In Mumbai it's better to use public mode of transportation like the trains and buses if you don't want to get caught up in traffic jams and get to place on time. But in Pune that's absent. There are buses but they seem so ancient, even more ancient than the state transportation buses. It's pretty scary to travel in any of them. And more over you can't exactly read the bus number or where the bus is going, the destination is written in Marathi so it's going to take time for someone like me who is not proficient in the language to read it (I pity the ones that don't know the language). Moreover the roads are not very good here and not properly lit. So at night I wonder whether if I should concentrate at looking below at the road to avoid stepping into ditches and muck, or should I look out for the on coming traffic. It's not like Mumbai road's are any better. I think they have the most number and biggest potholes in the world. But moreover people in Pune seem to lack traffic sense. They don't honk their horn to ask you to get out of the way. And if they need to take a turn at the signal, instead of being in the lane nearest to the turn, they expect to turn from middle of the road. Moreover there are instances of people driving on the other side of the divider. So you need to lookout for them when you are crossing, especially when you are crossing the road.
I guess any Puneite reading this would surely argue with me that I am only looking at the bad points. Hmmmm, there are loads of things I know I can appreciate about this city. The most important thing being is that the cost of living (as I've been told, though not fully experienced) is pretty low as compared to Mumbai. Though people may complain about the pollution level in Pune I don't think it's as high as that in Mumbai. They would need to come to Andheri, especially the Andheri-Kurla stretch and MIDC. I know I have a pleasant walk every morning coming to work. It's doesn't even matter of the walk is around a 30 minutes walk, as long as I don't sweat. There is whole lot of greenery that I enjoy everyday during my walk to work as well as when having lunch from my canteen on the terrace of the office. It's a beautiful site as there are not many sky rises and you can see the hills and the trees and the beautiful skies. But what I like of Pune is that there is something about the city, that I can't exactly put in words. There is this charm about the city. It's like an old world meeting the new world (much like walking through Fort Mumbai minus the traffic and commotion of the people). And yes there a whole interesting place that you can visit. Historical forts to trek to and many other place to visit. This whole thing makes Pune pretty interesting. And not forgetting Kayani's, famous for its biscuits and stuff.
Well this weekend is going be the first weekend that I am not going anywhere out of Pune. So surely going to take the time to familiarise myself with the city, or at least the area where I stay. Who knows over time my view of the city would change, for the better or the worst.
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Books that I've Been Reading
Well been reading three interesting and un-put-downable books. Firstly been reading Philip Pullman's Dark Material Trilogy, right now on the Amber Spyglass. The books interesting as I've been following the Lyra and Will through the previous books (Northern Light/Golden Compass and Subtle Knife). Had to put the book on hold as couldn't resist starting the 7th final installment of J.K. Rowling's famous boy wizard, Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows and can't seem to put the book (or close the window in case of the eBook). Worth the wait, the hype, and the hoopla that surrounded it. Well finally been reading the Systematic Design of Instruction by Walter Dick, Lou Carey, and James O. Carey. Initially couldn't get myself to read it. but somehow today the book seems pretty knowledgeable and fascinating. And this coming from a person who would normally avoid such books...so this quite interesting.
Three very different books. Two fiction and one knowledge based. But all very interesting and helpful (whether to pass time or improve your working knowledge).
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
Get Off Your Cross
But then are going to live with these crosses forever, carrying them around with wherever we go in life???? Are we going to suffer on our crosses for eternity??? Aren't we not going to something??? Shouldn't we be finding a solutions for all our problems or ways to face the trials and tribulations that life throws at us.
The idea should not be about carrying our crosses, it should be that we should challenge the cross that we bear. Find a solution that could put an end, or at least strength to face it. We all have crosses to carry in life, but cannot go around carrying them forever. We shouldn't be hanging from our Christ, but get of it.
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Partition: Then & Now
The partition occurred in 1947, but you wonder if the situation has changed in present time??? There is still communal tension between these communities. This was seen in the Babri Masjid demolotion and the riots that occured after it and not forgeting the Mumbai blasts and the riots in Godra. Still thousands of people loose their lives, properties and woman their honour. And why does this happens because we still have people who incite people to riots. They are now politician and no longer some ordinary person, politician with a huge clout, who can get away with racial comments and even murder. They use their gathering to call for chasing a particular community from the country and bringing them to their knees. And not to forget attacking gathering of other communities. They use their gathering and newspapers to spread their propaganda. And what do we do, we elect them back to power.
Sometimes I wonder how many people more have to loose their lives, livelihood, properties, families and woman their honour, before we take some action against them???
Thursday, March 22, 2007
Smaller Gestures
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
My Own Little Miss Sunshine Road trip
Definitely never going to forget this short but interesting road trip. My own Little Sunshine adventure.
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
In Time of Trouble
There are number of hymns and songs that could be my saviour, my rope in getting over bad time.
For example, the following hymn:
When upon life bellows's you are tempest tossed,
When you are discouraged thinking all is lost,
Count your many blessing name them one by one,
And you will discover what the LORD has done.or this one,
Give them all, give them all to Jesus,
Shattered dream, wounded hearts, broken toys,
And he'll turn your sorrow into joy.Or my favourite from the Sound of Music
When the dog bites, when the be stings,
When my salary is taxed (Note the modification)
I simply remember my favourite things,
And then I don't feel so bad.
Monday, February 26, 2007
School Anthems
There was point in my life when I used to go to Antonio De'souza High School, Byculla, when I used to be envious about my sisters cause they used to have a school anthem and they used to sing it, or try to remember it when she met with friends.
There is a sense of pride and belonging when you sing your school anthem. Finally did the get the pleasure of having a school anthem when I changed school to Don Bosco, Lonavla. It was always fun to sing it after assemblies, sports day, annual days, accompanied by a guitar or the keyboard or even the whole band. Each and every word made you feel that you belonged to a great institution.
Let's join in a chorus,
To sing to the glory,
The glory of Don Bosco Lonavla,
With one heart, and voice,
We sing never seizing,
The Glory of Don Bosco Lonavla.Virtuous, Incendese, Vireous,
Let our motto be,
Because we believe,
That virtues kindle strength,
This is good for you and me.Don Bosco we love and cherish,
Be our father and helps us on our way,
Be our guide we want to be like you,
We your sons and daughters Pray Today.
Why do I even bother polishing my shoes???
I wonder why do I bother ironing my clothes. Its' bound to get crumpled in the train. What do you expect when you are packed in a compartment. And to top it all the heat and sweat. Once you get off the train i am sure your shirt would resemble Mandakini's wet saree from Ram Tere Gang Malee. you'd be showing of your assets (or liabilities if you aren't in shape).
Thursday, February 22, 2007
Trekking to Raigad—The Planning Stage
I have started gathering info about the place. Planning to make the trek. So watch out for this space about whether I will actually go on the trek. But as of now the enthuasism is pretty high. So surely going to do it :)
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Wednesday, February 21, 2007
How Fair is Life????
But then we complain and complain. But do these complains do anything to improve the situation???? It better to stop complaining and stop questioning life about it's fairness. What you need to do is go on living, working, struggling and at the same time striving to get to the goals that we want to achieve. Striving to fulfil our dreams. In that way Life would be more of a pleasant journey than a stressful one.
Sunday, February 11, 2007
A few after thoughts
Well I can be very impatient, but the irony is that I will wait for long to get things done or wait for somone. I get very irritated and angry very quickly, and will say and do things I know will regret. I know I've said goodbye to friends on a very irrational thought, but then want them back, because I can't bear to loose them and regret what I've said after wards. There are times I know that my actions have hurt a few but I really don't mean it. I know I can be really irritating at times.
If I love a person I love them with all my heart. But I need my space. I hate people taking advantage of me, which so often happens. I hate being taken for granted and I will not take someone for granted. Hate people bossing over me, but unfortunately get bossed over a lot.
Sometime I feel that even though people say they know me, but I don't think they really do.
"And I don't want the world to see me,
Cause I don't think that they'd understand,
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am"
Saturday, February 10, 2007
ME
There is one thing about me, I am by nature a very friendly person, Ilove to make friends and can make firends easily and consider people as friends very quickly, even though I may be bit shy at first. I love to talk to people and can start chatting with everyone I know, or I want to know. As a person I know I am pretty approachable and I really don't put any barrier in front of me.
I make friends very quickly, but have only a few whom I actually call my Best Friend. I will go to any length to help my friends or for that matter anyone whom I know. To make their lives better and help them in any way I can. I can see my friends hurt or can't see anyone hurting them. I care for them alot.
I am not an attention seeker, but I dont' like being ignored. Like any other human it hurts me when someone I consider a friend ignoring me, it hurts me. I do get jealous, which i normal. I am not a saint and I am etitled to be jealous.
I know I do come across childish, a bit immature. I know behave kiddish, because thats the way I try to deal with my problems and pain in life. You may think I can never be serious. But I am one serious person and I know the gravity of the situation I soo often find myself in. I hate decision making and leave the decision on others. But if the decision concerns me or affects me in anyway, I won't shrugg off my responsibility.
I am emmotional, very emmotional. There are times I have to literally hold back tears, or i may find myself in tears for very small incidents. But I can be very strong and be there fo my family, as I found out when my dad passed away.
I hate when people have the wrong impression about me. I hate when people say I am not trustyworthy, immature, someone who uses others. Thats not who I am. YEs I may be a bit immature, because I tend to follow my heart than my head. About not being trustworth thats a openion each one is entitled to, but I may never always agree with you. I know one who would use someone else for my own benefit. I can't hurt anyone, if I do it is totally unintentional.
I am pretty openionated and will talk about things I hate. But I am a person who is all bark and no bite. I hate confrontation, hate getting into an arguement. I hate being torned between two people.
I can get angry very quickly, but I cool down at the same speed too. I can't stay angry with someone for too long. And even if I say I never want to talk to them, I end up talking to them. I really don't like it when someone tell me never to contact them again. Maybe intially my ego will prevent them, but I will try in get in touch once evrything has settled down. There is a part of me that would want to try something else, but there is part of me that doesn't want me to seem to desperate. I am no leech. But there will always be part of me that wants to reconcile and clear any misunderstanding that may be there.
I can be very chirpy and quirky. Will start dancing and singing anywhere. I talk very loudly, can never be soft. When I talk it is not just my mouth doing all the talking. My whole body participates in the conversation. Love to dance but can't do it for too long. Would hate all night party. I do need my rest and sleep.
Well ther is soo much to me, as I said before, that I too can't remember. Hope this can clear some on the isunderstanding.
Friday, February 09, 2007
Memories
You miss them alot, there is an emptyness in you that cannot be fille by anyone else. But there is one thing I know by pinning for someone we do not let their sould rest in peace. What we need to do is cherish the memories that we shared with them. Think of all the Happy times you spent together.
Sunday, February 04, 2007
Why Vote
Well there were those people who wanted to vote but couldn't vote. Because they were not registered voter, or their names were not transferred to the new area they moved to. Or their jobs didn't give them any time or any intimation. Me included :)
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Train Travel
Well getting into a Mumbai local at peak is another event itself. It quite reminds me of the famous Bull-Running in Pamplona, Spain. The mad dash to get in to the train for either a seat of a comfortable standing place is something quite unworldly. If you are getting into starting train then you can just wait for the mad dash to settle and get into the train. But if you are in the train and trying to get off it then God save your soul. If you don’t use every ounce of your strength you’ll find yourself being pushed deeper into the compartment.
One thing about travelling by train is that you may not require to visit massage parlour or a sauna. The compartment so packed like a can of sardines. Bodies against bodies. You have to contort your body in ways you didn’t think would be possible, just get some space. And to top it all you will still have people complaining or making noise or picking a fight with someone because someone is not giving them enough of space. A train fight can be an interesting place to learning all the A-Z of Hindi gallies. Well getting in to the train takes up so much energy that by the time you are in the train you are one mass of sweet. And to top it all you have hundreds of commuters breathing together, making the compartment one big steam/boiler room.
Well you also get some free entertainment while travelling. You’ll have these guys leaning out of the train or trying to do some daredevil stunt, like catching the train from the tracks, getting off the train and catching it while in motion, leaning really out of the train, touching every pole they pass. Wonder if they are trying to impress the females in the passing train (who actually don’t seem to give them any attention)? Then there are those who travel on the roof top of the train, wonder if they are aware of the peril in travelling this way. Then saw a guy standing on top of the roof top and in spite of the warning of the passenger, continue to stand while the train was in motion. Maybe he thought he was surfing on the beaches of Goa or the US.
Then there is this fat gentleman who gets in at Jogeshwari and wants to stand at the door. And when Andheri comes he’ll move from one end of the door to the other and even fight with the person standing on the end if he doesn’t give him space. Sometime I really want to applaud his act everyday.
Well there is more such thing that happens while travelling that you need to actually travel to experience it.
Monday, January 29, 2007
How Different???
Just yesterday (or maybe today) I read in the papers and on websites about the Shiv Sena's political rally for the upcoming muncipal elections. This was attended, obviously, by Mr. Bal Thackery and Mr. Narendra Modi. What caught my attention was one of the things that Mr. Thackery said in his speech with regards to separating Mumbai from Maharashtra. He said that the city will burn if taken away from Maharashtra. Another statement he asked all Hindus to break all the linguistic barrier and unit to create Hinsutan of Hindus (which was his dream) and that would bring Islam in this country down to its knees.
Reading this made me question what is the difference between one Abu Hamza and one Bal Thackery. Both use public gathering and meeting in trying to get people to their cause. Both use fiery speech which has soo much so as to incite a communal violence. So if Abu Hamza has been arrested for his speeches, makes me wonder why the same hasn't been done for Mr. Thackery. If Abu Hamza has been branded radical leader and supporter of Terrorism, how different is Mr. Bal Thackery????
Sunday, January 28, 2007
Innocence of Children
WEll for the 26th January, my Godchild Clyde's building had a Fancy Dress competition. His mom sent him as Nemo (the fish character from Finding Nemo) and made him say the Hindi poetry Machli Jal Ki Rani Hain. Well he managed to get a second prize in his age group (0-5). Well yesterday his mom made him say the poetry on the phone. And trust me he said it beautifully and every line (may not be too clearly) But he said the entire poetry. Mind you this little guy is just 3 and half year old and its a big deal for him to say this poetry on stage and comepete with children older than him and manage to win a prize. It was really sweet and prud moment for me to hear him on the phone.
WEll these two incident made me long for their innocence, their purity of mind and beliefs. Made me long to return back to my very own childhood. Made me want to have children of my own.
Thursday, January 18, 2007
Can we really consider ourselves as educated gentlemen and women????
Well in school, as a kid i learnt tahat we should offer our seat to the elderly and ladies. But does this lesson only applies to wel dressed women only??? Would these ladies have to go through the same ordeal if their situation were different and they were not labourers but woman from affluent families????
Doesn't this make you wonder... What example are we setting????
Obessed with a song???
But somehow I was able to apply this to my life, to my losses and sadness that have gone through. To the hearbreak, pain of loosing someone you care so much about. Whether it your friend or your pet.
Monday, January 08, 2007
Wedding Cards
Iranian Cafe
Well this Saturday had a pleasure of visiting one such place at Dhobi Talao (Near Metro). There was something sweet about this place. It something of a rarity that is seems to be fading away in the modern world. There was an old world charm to it, elderly gentlemen taking your order, round tables with red checks table cloth, those chairs, and people having mawa cakes, puddings, sandwiches. You will not see such structure anywhere now.
Had a sandwich, didn't like it too much, but was enjoying the place soo much that i didn't mind it. Had to have the pudding thinking about my friend Ghazala's recommendation. And it was worth it.
All in all it was wonderful experience. To be transported to another world. How wish this world wouldn't fade way and find its place in the modern world without loosing it's charm :)
Saturday, January 06, 2007
Friends
It would really be pretty empty and gloomy. I would have been in the depths of dispair an dsepression if wouldn't have been for friends who pulled me back up :). They my support system, the crutches that I lean on when situation cripples me. Someone who I can lean on in my darkest hour. Someone who makes me realise my folly, spank me, correct me, but have my best interest in their heart.
I know I am blessed with the best, after all I have found these gems. The funny thing is some I have recently met, maybe a month back, but it seem I have known them for ages. Lovew talking to them, though I may have never met them. Chat with them for hours on messenger. Spend time with them. share my interests, makes life worth living.
Then there are my old friends who I can't do without. I may have fought with them, screamt and abused them. But at the end of the day I care too much about them.
I really care about all my friends, they are my baccha and soo dearly love them.
Well this is for all my friends, new and old, I want you'll to be a part of my life. Be there for joys, and support in sorrows. I wnt you guys and gals to be my friends for a life time.
From the bottom f my heart I THANK YOU ALL....
Yours forever
Roddie
Friday, January 05, 2007
Wish.. Wish.. Wish
How I wish.....
Thursday, January 04, 2007
How justified are we in the things we do????
Well it was shocking to see the video of Sadam Hussein's execution being broadcasted in one of the big new channel. This was an absolutle shocker, especially from the news channel. We condenm the news channels for flashing the hostage execution videos. How justified was this news channel in showing this footage????
How justified are WE????