I am no Angel... but grateful for who I am

I am no angel

I am no saint

In fact I’m miles away from it

Don’t judge me by what you see

Or what you may perceive me to be

Cause if you peel away the layers you see

You’ll find the real me 

An ordinary soul

A simple but confused mind

Cause I am nothing special

In fact I am bit of a bore

I’m not perfect 

Just perfectly imperfect 

Of mistakes I’ve made my share

And of them I am not ashamed to say

Regretted the ones I’ve made

But I’ve learned to live with them

Learned to learn from them

Avoid having them on repeat

Underneath it all I’m just an ordinary man

There’s nothing special, a fool

In fact a bit damaged and bruised

A bit mental, a bit temperamental 

A lot crazy, cause Crazy is what crazy do

A child at heart not willing to grow up

But forced to grow 

And circumstance is to be blamed

But never truly giving up

A stubborn fool

I’ve loved and I’ve lost

But I hope to love again

I’ve been hurt and I’ve been in pain

And I’ve been the cause of both too

A lost and lonely soul

And though I may try and smile

But my smile may just a frown

I am just a simple man

Asking to be loved for who I am

I am only human like everyone else

And like everyone else 

I have my wants and desires

That which stem of the flesh

And though I may try to be coy and shy

But I know my wants and desires

Sometimes ashamed of it

Other times conflicted about it

But nonetheless wanting it, craving it

But then it’s love that I want

And it often a pit full for this overthinker

I am grateful for everyone in my life

The ones who have come and gone

And the ones who have stayed

For the ones who have left an impression 

A handprint, a picture etched 

On the walls of my mind for all eternity

The ones I cannot do without

The ones who I care for

The ones who I’ve love & will forever love

Family, friends, colleagues, lovers, partners, spouse and offsprings and pets

People who I will hold dear to me

Forever and always and beyond

Life may not be kind

Showing me an oasis 

Only for it to turn out a mirage

But then if life has thrown lemons

It’s also shown me how to make lemonade 

Or have a glass of tequila and toast life

For every sadness it shown me kindness

For every sorrows it has shown me

How to overcome

For every loss it has taught me to overcome

For every pain it has applied a cooling balm

It has helped me heal from every hurt

And though it may scar

It has showed me how to survive

So to conclude this random rambling 

This Rodmaness 

I am no angel

But I am grateful to be me!