No Tears to Cry

I have no tears to cry

Even though I want to cry so bad

There’s this lump in my throat

That just refuses to go up

That threaten lady to choke me

If don’t let it out

There’s an heaviness in chest

That threatens to weigh me down

I so badly want to cry 

To let it all out

But I can’t

Cause I have no tears to cry

So let this pain stress within me

There’s not a single moment 

I don’t quite think of you

Of what happened 

Why did it happen

How could I let this happen

I question myself 

If the words I said

Hurt you more than it hurt me

I hear your voice

Deep inside my head

And makes me feel guilty as hell

Leaving me with this feeling 

That this was all my fault

That I put us in this position

But why should I feel guilty

Of trying to say what was hurting

To say what was disturbing 

For wanting to take a step back

And give me time

I know the words that came out

We’re not quite the right ones

But somewhere down the line

I know we are both to blame

Cause you clap with two hands

Though I know that 

I may have done you wrong 

I hope you do introspect

From where I am coming from

Cause I want you to know

That I do love and care about you

It’s difficult for me to let go

To let go of this love in my heart 

That’s still for you

That still aches 

I do hope you know that though I’m in pain

Ans I know you are in true

I will always try not hold no grudges

Or curse your name

But know for sure 

I will miss you

So even though I pour my heart in these lines

I still can’t get myself to cry

Cause I have no tears to cry