Ramblings of a lonely mind

Sometimes I feel like I am going loose myself, loose my mind. Fear the sadistic thoughts that run in my brain. I try to drown them but the more they claw back to the surface of my consciousness, threatening my sanity. Life seems unrelenting, with each moment like a wave constaantly washing up the shore. I fear it will consume me, eat me and spit me out. Most importantly I am afraid of what it does to me. Very often leaving me desperate and lonely and delirious. Not sure when it will end.