Through Sliding Doors

Have you ever had that nagging thought of what would your life be if you had chosen Option A instead of B, gone with C instead of D? Oh come on, don’t be so naive! Don’t tell me these thoughts never crossed your mind! 

Not really regrets (or at least that what I tell myself), it’s just trying to imagine what life would be if you had chosen differently. Like jumping through the sliding doors of a train you’re trying to catch. What would have happened if you had made it, what would have changed if you missed it (yayayaya, I know you know, or assume you know, that this is a plot from the Gwyneth Paltrow, John Hannah movie).

What would have happened if like your college friends you chose to go to the same classes as them? Would you have scored better in your boards? Would that affect your overall percentage?

What if, like them, you chose to bell the CAT, and complete your MBA. Would your career have taken a different path from the one that you are currently on? Would you be settled with a good paying job and live a globe trotting life? Would you have made millions with no care for loans and expenses?

When you see those pictures of your ex, 

 do you wonder what would life if you have made it work. Would those smiling wedding pics be that of yours? Would those children be yours? Would you be well off or worse if you had matured and worked out the chinks?

Then there’s the gthought of single life and not being in a relationship. What would life be if you were not committed? What would your dating scene be like? Would you be cruising from one person to another?

The “What ifs” and “What nots” of life. We all have them, we all go through them. But remember, at the end of the day we have our Now. The past is gone, we can’t go back and change it. The present is here and what we have to make the most of it. 

We are the sum of the decisions we make. So for better or worse we have to live with it. But then don’t live in regret. It’s the decisions you’ve made and brought you to where you are now. If you have to improve, learn from it and move on, don’t let your thoughts of your past plague you.

Look at it this way, if you had stayed with your ex, you wouldn’t have met the love your life, you wouldn’t open your life to aspects of life you didn’t know where there.

The Now is what you have, make the most of it.

This Old Road

There’s this road that I know

That starts right outside my door

That takes me on an adventure 

To places unknown 

Through unfamiliar places

Past unfamiliar faces

Always leading me on

Through ups and downs

And twists and turns

Always urging me on

To keep moving forward

Never to give up and turn back

Cause this road only knows onwards

And never moving backward

Through the twists and turns

This roads keeps me guessing

Cause I never know

What awaits around the next bend

Sometimes it fills me with fear and dread 

And other times with childlike glee

And the excitement and anticipation 

Of what is to come

The road is never always the same

Sometimes you have steep inclines

Leading to steep declines

Sometime rolling hills

And at times gradual planes

But never the same

Always dynamic and always changing

That leaves me always guessing

Keeps me intrigued and interested 

Never ever letting me slip

Into a familiar rhythm 

But always giving me something 

To look forward to

Something to look towards to

Along the way 

there’s always a chance to meet

A fellow traveller just like you 

Who has chosen to undertake this journey

And for those few moments

You have a traveling companion with you

There’s stories to share

Notes to compare

And you know you’re never alone

And if luck should have it

They’ll stay with you through your journey

Cause theirs too is the same

But there may come a time

When you reach a fork

Where their journey continues 

Along on another way

Or their journey may come to an end

Then you need to bade them farewell 

And continue on, journey on

Travellers may come

Travellers may go

Some leaving their imprints

That remains long after they are gone

But then you continue to journey

With fond memories and 

You continue to journey on

Till at last your journey may end

And you find your way

Back to your home 

A place to rest your weary head

And put up your tired feet

Cause the miles that you’ve experienced 

And now it’s time lay down and sleep

The road of life goes on and on

Out from my doorsteps

Into the great beyond

But down this road, I’ll shall go

With a smile on my face 

And a song in my heart

To journey on and on