An Orgasmic Workout

If you  should chance to step into a gym, if you aren’t a gym rat like me (though that’s a term I detest to be known as but in reality I know I am), you know you’re stepping into a testosterone filled space (would that be same for women too???) 

The puffed chests, the pumped biceps, the sound of clanging plates, of pumping iron, with each trying to out do the other, an unspoken competition between the gym rats. But above all the clatter and the idle chatter (yes you can find it in the gym too) and over the din of the music blasting over the sound system, comes that grunt of giving it your all in the final set, feeling the burn.

Then there are those who grunt incessantly throughout their workout. And sometimes these grunts can be quite suggestive, awkwardly funny (you know what I am getting at). They sound like their getting some action (which is actually true in the literal of sense), in the heat of moment, filled with passion (damn they seem to be quite passionate about workout in a different way). Oh come on you definitely heard these sounds before, one way or the other, you can’t  be all that sanskari!

All the sound that they make makes you wonder what are they actually upto. It sounds more like they are  humping around, climaxing, reaching the point of no return, an orgasm (damn they seem to be quite passionate.... about their workout).  It’s like what the f@#%, get a room, why do you want to let your bedroom secret out? Why do you want the world to know the sounds you make in the bedroom?

Sometimes you wonder if they are aware of the sounds they make? But then you see the ear buds and you know the are deaf to themselves. So they continue to grunt to their hearts content, oblivious to the sounds coming out of them, much to the  embarrassment, awkwardness, amusement of those who happen to find themselves in the gym at the same time as them.

You wonder if you should give them the eye roll, or give them the WTF stare, or just plainly chuckle at their obnoxiousness. But no matter you know that no matter what you do or try to do there’s no stopping then from having one orgasmic workout.

The Dark Lonely Road

I have been down a road

A cold lonely road

Where there’s no other soul

And you find yourself all alone

Down that dark lonely road!

You feel you’re loosing your mind

And all you want to do is hide

But then there’s nowhere to go

From all this is happening in your mind

And no one knows what going on inside

You stand there and smile 

As if there’s nothing wrong outside

Though you’re in denial

Cause you want to seem normal outside

Though you’re dying a million death inside 

All you want to do is cry

Cause the pain you feel inside

Is eating you inside

Burning you, consuming you

Sending searing pain through your being

You just want to close your eyes and let go

To drift off to eternal sleep

Drifting down an abyss of no return

The world can be unkind

And turn a blind eye

Even though it may know

The pain you feel inside

May call you names and make fun of you

Labels you and trying your patience 

Making you feel like it revels 

In seeing you cry 

Leaving you broken, wounded, bleeding

But then the world is not always cruel

And will not always treat you a fool

Cause there are those who are kind

And try beyond the act you put on outside

They will make sure your never left behind 

Or all by yourself all alone

Remember after night comes day

Form darkness comes light

Cause there can’t be darkness all the time

At some point you’ll see the light

To banish all the dark that you feel inside

So don’t loose hope

You can never loose hope

There’s so much to live for 

There’s so much to give

So don’t ever give up 

You can never give up

Though you maybe tired and frustrated 

And the things don’t seem to go your way

But for every wrong can’t make right

And there’s going to be time 

When life will get it right

So don’t loose faith 

Cause good things will come your way

If you just hold on a little longer

Have a little faith

Help will always come 

To the ones who need it the  most

So just reach out and take that hand

That’s reaching out to you 

To pull you out of the mire 

You find yourself caught in 

Who throws you a lifeline 

When you feel that life 

will swallow you whole

You don’t have to go alone

There’s someone out there  for you

So you just have to reach out 

And take that hand

Acknowledge the pain you feel

You don’t have to hide it

You don’t have to fight it

You don’t have to feel 

Ostracised because of it

Believe, have faith

You cannot give in

You can never give in

There’s so much to live

So you can’t give up on it

Cause no matter how hopeless

You’ll always find a way

So believe and stand strong 

Cause you’ll make it through

Both you and I!

The Fool for Love

We are fools for love

We are in love

With the feeling of being loved

And loving back in return!

We may try to hide from it

We may try to avoid it

But in the end we all are victims

Of Cupid’s wicked ways.

Through the heartaches 

Through the heartbreaks

We promise ourselves never again

We harden our hearts

We steel our will

We threaten our hearts

And make it promise it never will

But no matter what we may try to do

Love finds its way to you

We don’t know when 

We don’t know where

We don’t know how

We don’t know who

Ans though we may try

To desperately to avoid it

We can’t help ourselves

But be that fool in love!

Love knows no reason

Love know no boundaries

Neither thus it know

Gender, age, religion, culture or country 

It just lets us love

To love without expectations

With hope that the love we feel

Will flourish and grow

Into something very special!

You can never hate yourself 

For the things that you feel

You feel what you feel

Whether it’s reciprocated or not

You cannot judge your worth

Whether your feelings are

Reciprocated or not

Whether your feelings are returned

Is in the hands of the other

Your love may be reciprocated manifolds 

And at times it may be not

But you never cease to love 

No matter what!

Don’t deny yourself the feeling

Cause to feel that way

Is the most natural thing to do

Cause you’ll feel what you feel

You’ll love who you love

Whether you can help it or not

Whether it’s reciprocated or not

Sometimes you got give it time

For love to bloom and come to you

You’ve got to be patient and calm

Cause if it’s in your destiny

Then it will find a way to thee

If it’s meant to be it will be

When it’s in your destiny!

So don’t fret, don’t loose faith

Don’t loose hope

Cause love will find a way to you 

We can’t help ourselves but love

Cause love is what we can do

Though we may try our best to not

But all we want is to love

And be loved in return

Cause love is all we need

Cause love is all we want

So live, love, hope

Cause life is beautiful 

When you’re in love!

The Success Factor/Failure Affliction

Success and Failure, two things that goes hand in hand, the two sides of the same coin, a frenemy. You can’t know one without knowing the other. We can’t appreciate one without the other. You can never appreciate the sweetness of success without tasting the bitterness of failure.

Both part and parcel of life. We can’t go through life without running into them, without experiencing them. Let’s face it, we aren’t always lucky to meet success at every time, and there’s surely going to be a moment  where failure is going to give way to success.

We are so wrapped up in our singular vision of succeeding that we forget about failure. We so want to succeed that failure is not an option. We so forget to prepare ourselves just in case we don’t succeed.

Success and Failure are part parcel of our lives. They go hand in hand, often complimenting each other, creating a new appreciation for each other. We cannot know one without the knowing the other. But each of them, in their own way, teach us, help us to learn and grow. 

Sometimes we may have to face thousands of failures before meeting success. Sometimes we may succeed in the first go itself. The goal here is not let failure get us down, or let success get to our head. You don’t have to wallow in it or gloat about it. Learn from it and move on. Learn from it and improve and grow.

Don’t let failure get you down. Either it was not meant to be or there’s a better thing out there or a better way to get to where you want go. It’s not the be all and end all. Don’t loose hope. Dust yourself off and get up. There’s always hope for the hopeless, so don’t loose faith.

So hold your head up high and be proud that you had the courage to undertake a quest that others would have quiver to undertake. If you succeed, pat your self on the back and move on to the next milestone. If you should fail, don’t loose faith, see what went wrong, learn from it and try again, till you succeed.

So in the end if you should chance to run into anyone of them, don’t be afraid of them, or shun one for the other, or snub one for the other. Don’t treat one your enemy and the other a friend. They are both equally important, they are both equally essential, both friends and teachers. So embrace both as you would embrace life. Cause that’s the way life was meant to be.

Come Away with Me

Come away with me

Let’s leave this world behind

To a place they can’t hurt us

With their judgemental eyes

Come away with me

Let’s leave our cares behind

For a moment put our burden down

Stop worrying just for a while

I don’t know 

If I can make your burdens light

Or make your cares disappear 

But what I promise is to

Stand forever by your side

You can share your burdens with me

And together we we will find a way

Out of the worries and the care

You don’t have to bear it by yourself

You can always share it with me

And I can try to make it light

Come away with me 

We can escape 

To a world our own

Far from their judgemental eyes

Come away with me

To a world of love 

Far from them 

Who tell us our love is impure

Come away with me

To a world we can make our own

Away from those 

Who tell us we can’t love this way

I want to wake up with you

While the rain falls gently outside

Playing a tune 

The score of our love

I want lay there with you 

With you in my arms

Leaving our cares outside

To never bother us for a while

I want to hold you tight

And tell you that everything will be alright 

Cause no matter what

You’ll have me by your side

Come away with me

Let’s lay down 

And make love

Till it’s morning light

Come away with me 

And let our touch 

Set the night on fire

burn our cares away

Come away with me 

We can kiss

All our cares away

Even if it’s just for a while

Come away with me

Cause I can’t stop myself

From loving you

So all I ask of you

Is to come away with me

Into the night

Why don’t you come away with me!

We the Colours

As I stood there waiting for my train I couldn’t help but notice the uniformity of the colours you saw. Yes Navratri was upon us as with it comes the colour day. It indeed was beautiful sight see everyone, well almost everyone in different hues and shades of the colour.

We are all like colours. Each unique, each symbolic, each beautiful, each significant, each coming to together to paint a picture, the picture of life. Black, white, brown, it doesn’t matter, each colour significant, each unique. No colour is too bright or dull, each beautiful. Some in the foreground, some in the background, making the foreground colour stand out. Each coming together, to be woven into the tapestry called life. The colour which we bring makes this tapestry unique and beautiful, a masterpiece.

We are filled with colours, busting through our pores, waiting to shine through for all to see. We can either choose to let our colours shine brightly, and with it standout, stand unique. Or we can choose to let our colour help someone else to standout, to shine bright, to be beautiful, as we stand in the background supporting them, finding happiness and solace seeing them shine bright. And then there are those who radiate and reflect your brightness, and shine brightly with you.

So let your true colour shine through. Don’t stop yourself from shining bright, don’t stop others from letting their own colours through. Cause there’s no good from outshining the other, instead we can shine brightly together to paint a bright and vibrant picture.

Let your colour be the reason for a smile, may it never bring a tear in another’s eyes. Be a rainbow, bright and beautiful, filled with colours of different hues. Be rainbow that brightens up someone’s dark sky. Let your true colours shine through.

The Cancer Warriors

So often we read about celebrities, politicians, sports personalities, who have fought cancer and succeeded, being termed as warriors. But the question that begs to be answered is can we confer the title of Cancer Warriors on them? Considering that most choose to go abroad for their treatment, makes you wonder how little a faith they had in the Indian medical system, and let’s face it they have money to burn. 

It’s not that their struggle is smaller or greater. At the end of the day, Cancer is a great leveller, it doesn’t discriminate. It affects people irrespective of their social status, religion, class or nationality. In short, it treats everyone alike, no matter who, what and where. It’s just some have greater access to resources than the other.

Being diagnosed with Cancer is like a death sentence in itself. So often the patient dies not really from the cancer but from the burden of the treatment and then from the treatment itself. Very often fear of life with cancer is what drives one closer to the grave. Being told that you have cancer effectively brings your life to a standstill, brings your world crashing down around you. And this isn’t just for the patient but also for their relatives and friends. The first question is of survival, the next is of the stage and finally comes the cost. And it’s here where many a hope comes crashing down.

Cancer treatment doesn’t come cheap and it easily accessible. The fear of the financial burden that the treatment will incur is what causes more pain than the pain of the treatment itself. This very often where hope gets crushed. And the treatment is not easy and takes a toll mentally and physically on all involved, the patient included.

But no matter what there’s always a will to live, a will to survive, a will to make it through within their means and ability. This will to live, this Hope is what sustains families, is what pulls them through, is what keeps them going. You can glimpse this will, this hope in their eyes as they wait there in line for hours and hours for their treatment. They bear the pain of the chemo coursing through their veins with the hope that somehow it’s controlling the cancerous cells, if not killing it. You can see them wince in pain, but you still see that hope burning in them. Their family standing by them, consoling them, staring blankly at that bottle as drop by drop the chemo flows, and with each drop there’s a hope of a miracle, of survival. Every drop carrying a silent prayer with it. And though the medicine may cause the patient to whither, there’s a hope always burning bright.

You see them with their face masks and their head in a scarf, to hide their baldness from the treatment, with their family, relatives, friends by their side, sitting on benches, lying on pavements. You can see the pain and sorrow in their eyes, but can also see the hope in their heart. Their plight moves you, brings you tears, makes you fight that lump in your throat, causing you turn your face cause you can’t take it. But then you will yourself to face life, to face it, to do what you can do. You’ve faced it, you know the pain, the suffering, the sorrow, toll that it takes. 

You empathise with them. You feel for them. You pray they never loose hope, through all the pain and suffering, cause you know when the hope is gone, so is the will to live. And that’s something you don’t want or hope for anyone, and so you pray that they have hope and strength that will never end. 

Through it all they keep fighting, fighting for their life, fighting for survival, fighting through the pain, fighting for the ones they love, never giving up hope, never giving up the fight, fighting the good fight, like a true warrior, a true cancer warrior. For me they are true champions, true Cancer Warriors.