Monday, December 05, 2011

Life Transformation

It's funny how life transforms you. One day you are living in a one room-hall-kitchen in Byculla, the next you are living in a 1 BHK in Malad. You are so used to living the chawl way but now you need to live among the sophisticated and the affluent. You lived with nosey but caring neighbours where fights were normal way of life, but now living in a society where people live in their own houses and would rather mind their own business than poking their knows into others. But then the politics are still there.

How life changes you! You were a carefree kid with not a care in this world, looking forward to your dad's annual visits and your trips to the international airport to pick him and not to forget the opening of the suitcase to see what he has got for you and all at home. You knew that there was your aunt and dad to look after and take care of your needs. But now you are a grown man with responsibilities. You have a home loan to clear, mouths to feed, a family to look after and your own personal expenses to meet. There's no dada and no Baba aunty, but now you have taken their place.

You fell in love and thought that this was it, you have met the one you want to marry and spend the rest of your life with. But then destiny had other plans. Problems cropped and things you couldn't handle. The girl went away and you were left heartbroken, picking up the pieces of your heart wondering were you ever up to for the long haul??? And then you discovered a part of you that you kept fighting. And then started a new chapter of your life, one that you would never imagine that you would chase after. Did things and met people. Some left their imprints others left their scars, but all the while you kept living. You did things you never did imagine doing and did things that you knew you would have never been proud of.

But then love came on long, knocking the door of the heart. You did open but you just left the door slightly ajar. But love once again managed to creep in, especially when you have given up all hope of finding it again. This love came from the strangest of places and from a person so diametrically opposite to you. You at time tried to shut yourself and push this love away from you but love clawed its way back. At time you even clawed your own way to get this love back to you, but love never ever left your side. No matter how different this love was it was your love and it loved you deeply and you loved it more than anything in this world. There have been fights and near break ups, every time you questioning this love. But in the end you know this love was meant to be. It may not be acceptable to all but it is acceptable to you. IT after all is your decision, your choice and the one you want to live the rest of the life with. You want to settle down and start a family of your own.

So while life transformed you, people came and went, some leaving imprints others scares. Friends grew and started families of their own. They shifted out and life was never the same. You said a sad farewell to Baba aunty and your dada and the one who will always be your only baby, your Honey. But this taught you to grow. You found love and lost love, you changed jobs and city, you made new friends and some you trusted them with your little secrets. Some bullied you to be a better man all the while caring and loving you, others were just people passing through. You may feel that your family is pesky but then you love them greatly. You found love and you lost it. And again you found love and now you holding on tight to this love that you really don't want to let go, all the while ensuring that you never choke it.

It's funny how life changes us and teaches us.... in a good way :)