Places and Past Memories

Whenever you travel to place you have been to before, that are not only part of your past, but have numerous memories attached to them. Being there standing there or walking through can bring memories of days gone by. Be it the Church compound where you used to attend mass and meet up with friends after it. The many Midnight Masses that you attended during Christmas, where you dosed off to sleep because the sermon wasn't to interesting or the choir just put you to sleep. Your school grounds where you had your assembly session, your P.T. periods. Standing there brings all the fun time you had. And yes it can also bring back all the memories of being punished and made to kneel on the white stone, or performing mass drill (or mass torture as we used to call it) on the school grounds in the hot and humid Mumbai afternoons. Standing outside your old parish admiring the white statute of Christ with his arms opened wide, as if to invite everyone and not just the parishioner, and the towering structure of the church behind him, can be pretty overwhelming.

Standing at Victoria Terminus or VT (I don't like calling it by its new name, CST as I feel that the name doesn't do any justice to the feeling, to the ambiance, to the locality that is VT), admiring the Municipal building from across the road, the Central Railway building, brings back memories of college days when you didn't stop to admire these structure. Always in a hurry to reach college on time. Though you are aware about the beauty of these structures but you didn't have the time to stand admire them. But now I stand there admiring the Gargoyle, the works and the other object carved in these structures, feeling like a tourist, standing clicking pictures. Distinctly remember the time I used to come to VT accompanied by grandpa or weekly ear checkup at the ENT hospital. Remember the toy train outside VT station and all the movie posters stuck outside theater.

Here I was now standing in these places with all these memories coming flooding back to me. A part of past being relived even today.

Daily Horrorscope

Ever wonder why different horrorscope in the newspapers and in website have different predictions for the day. Isn't it odd that even though they are predicting for the same Zodiac sign, a general reading, each reader (of the Zodiac sign) predicts something different?

When your in Love

A close friend once told me when you are in love with someone you can't stay a way from the person you love. You can't bear to stay away from them. Every single moment you spend with them seems like you are living in a dream. You remember every little detail about them. The way they looked, the way they dressed, the perfume they wear. Even their body odour is memorable and can be pleasant. Every moment you spend with them you want it to be spent as if it's the last you'll ever spend with them. You just can't get enough of them. When you are with them all you want to do is just hold on to them, their hands, or play wit their hair, or just give them a tight big hug. Their every touch sends these feeling into your body, that's warm and wonderful. You want to be there for them when they are down and out and need a shoulder to cry on. You don't mind travelling the distance just to be there for them. And when you can't be there you feel all helpless and worried and tensed. You know they are your support and your pillar of strength. The one you want to turn to when you down in the pits. You keeping checking your cell for messages from them, your online messenger or your mails. You want to call them a lot but afraid that you may scare them or may seem like a stalker. you want to share every little thing with time. You want to be an open book for them to read.

Loves make you do crazy things, but then that's love for you.

Toothache

We live in a world where more aches and pains tha we can handle. Heartaches in all its forms maybe the worst of all of these, and yes one pain that can also be quite fatal. But toothaches too is right up there. IT's painfuls, affects your other parts, deprives of you of sleep and makes you want t pull off the culprit. One big comlpaint with rgards to toothaches is tht it knack of croping at times when you are least prepared for it. Like during the middle of the night, or when you are busy at work. Thus not only making you loose sleep, but also if your working you just can't concentrate with work. Most of the time you have to grope in the night t try and find the a way to end the pain. Who knows you could just pul out the culprit and put an end to all the pain or trying to break it to stop the pain. All the time the pain trying to rip your sanity off. The pain can be terrible. And here I am rambling about it because i ws in pain last night :(

Back To Endurance

After a gap of over a week, I found myself back at Endurance, the place where I develop all those muscles when I am in Pune. Since I've been working out at home so luckily there were no aches and pains. The only pain I had to go through was answering where I had been and why was I not coming to the gym. Anyway tried countering it by asking people how was their new year and how the years been treating them. But more over was glad to be back to place (as they sing in the opening credits of the show Cheers) where everyone knows your name :)

Exploration

I wonder if I will ever find myself. This journey of self exploration that I've been on is gotten me weary and made life a bit more complicated than it should be. In the process my esploration I've hurt innocent people and made myself untrustworthy. I wonder when this exploration will end and I'll find my true self and stop hurting people.

Journey Man

Shakespeare once said that life is a stage and we all are actors in this great play. That was the way he viewed life. Everyone has his or her views on what life really is. For me life is journey. I have started on this journey on this never ending road on the day I was born. I still journey on this road. I guess death would be my final and only rest that I will get.

So I journey on with tired feet and weary head wondering when at last I would see my destination. The place I would finally lay my head go to sleep forever.

But on this journey I know I am not always alone. People come into my life and fill it with love and beautiful things or could make my journey utter hell and me a miserable old foggy. These people come and go. And till the time they are with me I have company whether I want it or not. I maybe at times happy with their company but sometime all I want to tell them is to go to hell and leave me alone.

There are time, events and places that leave and indelible mark on me, make me the person who I am. Times I've spent in either happiness or in sorrow. Events that have been milestones in my life that I want to cherish forever or simply just want to forget about it. Places I have been to and learnt so much from them. They say you also learn from burning your fingers.

I know my journey is not over and my end is not in sight. So I continue on this journey, hopefully able to maintain a smile on my face, which is not a clown's smile. So i can brighten up the travel of my fellow travellers.

Tare Zameen Pe

Every body who is anybody seems to be raving and talking about Aamir Khan's maiden directorial Tare Zameen Pe. So I tried catching a bit of this movie the other day. Firstly I must admit about watching the movie on the pirated CD :(. But then nowdays with ticket price being quite steep and the quality of movie coming out being quite pathetic (especially the hindi movie scene) I think its better watching films on pirated copies than spending money in theater.

Anyway this blog is not about me watching pirated DVDs. Well didn't exactly watch the entire movie as I was trying to catch some sleep after spending the night at the hospital. My first impresion about the movie (and also could be the my prior openion) that the movie was too slow for my liking. It did throw light on plight of students and so called rat race we are trained for right from the beginning.

In a way could identify with the world Eshan created for himself. His universe, the things he liked to do. I can in a way realted to his feeling when he was threatened to be put in a boarding school. For a person who had to face threat from family I can understand what the child must be going through. Watching these scene were like reliving all these emmotion again. Reliving the days use felt that your family didn't want you. Well then boarding life changed a lot of things for me and in way made who I am right now.

But onething I didn't like about the movie was the way teachers were portrayed. Teachers are not necessarily the kind of people as portrayed in the feelings. There maybe teachers who are like the ones in the film but they are not all the time like that. This seems like a stereotypical view of a teacher.

Also somehow beside the boarding bit couldn't quite relate to Eshaan. Maybe because I am not dyslexic I wouldn't understand what he must be going through. But yes seenighis fights with the neighbourhood boys and then parent coming to complain about it so reminded me about my childhood days :)

Anyway didn't watch the end of the movie as I had to run to the gym for my workout so didn't watch the entire movie. Heard Aamir's charcter get's all preachy with the parents in the end.

well hope this movie does suceed in throwing light on the plight that we grown upsput on our children (though I have none as of yet).

Mixed Feeling

I don't know how many of you out there have faced such a situation in your life. You care for some one. You like someone very much. You even go out of your way to meet, message and call this person not only because you care about them but also because you like them. But then you feel that your the only one making all the efforts. The other person though interested in you seem to be quite lazy, whether it comes to calling back or messaging or even meeting up. You wonder if all the effort that you are investing is in a onesided relationship. But then deep down in your you got this feeling that this person genuinely cares about you. Even when you talk and spend time with them you d get that feeling. You want to be angry with them but you can't get angry.

An then you have this person who likes you and really cares about you. Doesn't do what the other person do. Actually makes the effort. Likes you and make you feel special. Someone who you share a great friendship with. A person with whom your bonds goes stronger by the day. Who actually expresses feeling honestly.

Sometime I wonder why life gets so complicated. A simple thing about caring for someone and liking someone can make your life complicated.

First Blog of 2008

Well this is my first blog of 2008 and it coming at an unearthly hour of 3:16 in the morning. Well not exactly getting any sleep and the mosquitoes aren't making it too easy to sleep so the best thing is to start my account of blogging for the year 2008. :)

Hope everyones who actually pathetic enough to read what I blog has a had away better start to the year than I have.

So here's wishing you a Happy New Year and a Happy Blogging :)