Tuesday, August 23, 2022

.. Here We Go Again!!!

Mamma mia, here I go again

My, my, how can I resist you?

Mamma mia, does it show again

My, my, just how much I've missed you?



That’s exactly what goes through your head when you’re back to running in live events. Yes you’ve said you’ll not run in BKC again, (too many loops, too many twists and turn for my liking), you’ve said that you’ll do only three events a year, one of them being the Mumbai Marathon, but you yet couldn’t resist the temptation of doing another one. And no I am no running snob!!!

But the thrill of running a race, the adrenaline rush, the joy of being able to run with friends, and not to forget all those photo-ops all along the way, and before and after the race, it keeps you coming back for more. 

Plus, if COVID and all the lockdown showed us anything is that you have to make the most of what you have, you never know when it will be taken all away. 

And yes, it’s also shows how good your training is coming along. Let’s face it, for someone like me training is never as fast as actually running in a race.


So you lace up, you dress up, ensuring you are on point (and by that I mean my running gears needs to match, how else would you look good in those running pics, especially when you’re an awkward runner who constantly has the t-Rex arms when he runs). And even though you’ve missed your alarms, you try to stay calm and not go into full on panic mode.

You put on your music, switch on all your running apps, damn I’ve got three, plus my watch, to keep track of your run.

So you try to block out all the twists and turns, which seem more than any twists and turns in a Hindi film (damn I need to retire this dialogue, used it one too many times), you have sweat trickling down your face, while Mark Knofler singing in your ears, “Money for nothing, but the chicks for free!”


You constantly fight the urge to speed up every time you are passed up (and that happens often), but you fist pump every time you better your pace at the end of each kilometre.  You avoid trying to look everywhere, here and there and be focused in the moment. But for a highly distracted soul, that’s next to impossible.

Though the weather maybe horribly humid (it rained the previous day but not a drop to be seen on race day), you remind yourself, this is Mumbai, and the weather is going to be humid! This is what you train for, so suck it up and run! Before thank god there’s a breeze in this concrete maze, so the weather isn’t all that bad.


Finally when you approach that finish line you let the adrenaline surge through your vein and carry you over that line, with all the speed you can muster, hoping that you get at least one good pic to post on Instagram. Or if you are someone like me you are already composing your post while you ran. But before that you need to the most important thing… stop that damn watch and apps and what not you use to track your run.

And then comes the fun part. You get to meet and greet your fellow crazies, who like you may complain about the route and the weather, but will never shy to race again. Not to forget all the post run shenanigans which for me is the cherry on the top, no matter how good or bad your run may have been you got indulge in all the craziness and the photoops.


On a serious note, for someone who has been battling with issues related to weight, speed, loneliness, anxiety, these races really help. It gets your adrenaline pumping, it shows you how far you’ve come and teaches what to do to go even further. Those few moments, amongst your peers keeps your loneliness and anxiety at bay, letting you enjoy yourself, letting you be your crazy Runnaholic self! And even though you maybe far from your best, you always know you can do better, and slowly and steadily you are inching towards your better self. 


So even though you prefer to train rather than races, or you have a quota races you will run in a year, or you feel you are not ready to race, you will still run, you still race, cause…. “Tramps like us, baby you were born to run!!!!”

Wednesday, August 10, 2022

I Am

Well to quote ABBA

 “I’m nothing special, 

in fact I’m a bit of a bore”

You may think I’m good looking, 

You may think I’m hot

You may even think I am kind of man

You would like to date a lot

But then these are just “may”

And in reality your head says “nay”

Means I end up broken hearted a lot


I am the kind of guy 

Who’s very domesticated 

Who doesn’t drink 

Who doesn’t smoke

Who feels uncomfortable at parties

Who would rather sit in a corner

And watch others dance 

And mind it I can dance

A regular Sandra Dee

But I rather be sober and at home

Than at any party where I feel all alone

Even in a room full of people

I rather go to bed and get up at early morn

Right before the crack of dawn 

Than stay up at night and party

Like a hopeless soul


I am the kind of guy 

You would make love to in your head

You would text and flirt

And exchange explicit thoughts

Of what you would want to do 

together in bed

But when you get there

Leaves cold and unsatisfied

Causing you to let the relationship die

And leaving him wondering why

What he did wrong 

Leaving him shattered and torn


I am the kind of guy 

You would rather take home

To meet your parents

Than rather fall in love and date

Cause all though I am caring and loving

 And generous and kind

I may come across vanilla 

Not your typical kind

Who would attract you

Who would draw you 

Like a moth to the flame

I am not that kind of guy you would love in vain


I am the kind of guy

Who loves in the old fashioned way

Who’s not yet modern in his romantic ways

Who will be there for you 

When you need him

And will continue to be there for you

Even when you friend zone him


I am a kind of guy 

Who you could depend on

Who will always be there for you

Even if you lead him on

The guy who finds it difficult 

To read the signs

Who’s often left heartbroken 

Bruised and with scars 

But will still stay positive 

But will stay optimistic 

Inspite of the heartaches and pain


I am the kind of guy

Who rather be hurt than to hurt

Who’s rather feel anxious 

But refuse to loose hope

Who tries to see the good in everyone

And listen to everyone 

As they tell him what to do

Even though he knows

That they seriously don’t know him

Well and through 

Who tries to encourage, motivate

Be there for those who need him

But when he needs the support

Will find himself lonely and alone

Left to pick the pieces of life

All on his own


I am the kind of guy

Who will love with all his heart

Who will give all he’s got

Who will keep hoping and waiting

Who will keep anticipating 

Who constantly overthinks

Till he becomes an emotional wreck


But I am also the kind of guy

Who will never give up 

Who will pick his broken pieces

And try to heal and mend

Who refuses to stay bitter and complain 

And continue to hope

That one he will find the one 

That he truly deserves