Cherish You

I refuse to berate you

Or even abuse and curse your name

Cause you’ve have been nothing but kind

And a lot caring 

And have given no reason to complain

But still we had to part 

Because in the deepest part of my heart

I knew I was not what you need

So we had to set each other free

Rather than forcing the other to be 

Something they wouldn’t want to be

Although we wanted the journey to go on

It made no sense to make the other trudge

On a path they would no longer want to be on

No matter how hard we tried

We had to say our goodbyes

And go our own way

Wondering if our paths should ever converge

Would it still feel the same

I will not let you see me cry

Or even see that tear in my eyes

I will try to smile and be strong 

And not let the world know what’s going on

Even though on the inside I am crumbling

Breaking into a million pieces

Wounded and bleeding 

Writhing with pain that’s not ceasing

But still I refuse to cry

Not because you are not worth my tears 

In fact you are way more than that 

But I don’t want to think of you and cry

I would rather think of you and smile

For the memories that we made

Will always be special to me 

So I refuse to blame you 

And curse your name or shame you

I will forever smile when I think of you

Or when I think of the memories we’ve made

Cause I will forever cherish you

I will forever cherish us

And as Whitney and Dolly sang

I will always love you

No Tears to Cry

I have no tears to cry

Even though I want to cry so bad

There’s this lump in my throat

That just refuses to go up

That threaten lady to choke me

If don’t let it out

There’s an heaviness in chest

That threatens to weigh me down

I so badly want to cry 

To let it all out

But I can’t

Cause I have no tears to cry

So let this pain stress within me

There’s not a single moment 

I don’t quite think of you

Of what happened 

Why did it happen

How could I let this happen

I question myself 

If the words I said

Hurt you more than it hurt me

I hear your voice

Deep inside my head

And makes me feel guilty as hell

Leaving me with this feeling 

That this was all my fault

That I put us in this position

But why should I feel guilty

Of trying to say what was hurting

To say what was disturbing 

For wanting to take a step back

And give me time

I know the words that came out

We’re not quite the right ones

But somewhere down the line

I know we are both to blame

Cause you clap with two hands

Though I know that 

I may have done you wrong 

I hope you do introspect

From where I am coming from

Cause I want you to know

That I do love and care about you

It’s difficult for me to let go

To let go of this love in my heart 

That’s still for you

That still aches 

I do hope you know that though I’m in pain

Ans I know you are in true

I will always try not hold no grudges

Or curse your name

But know for sure 

I will miss you

So even though I pour my heart in these lines

I still can’t get myself to cry

Cause I have no tears to cry