Life from both sides

As I stand at the cusp

At the turn of another year

To grow a year older

Never knowing if I'll be wiser

Even though I know I am not 

Turning a new leaf

Cause I don't know what all to change

The year gone by

 Took me through hell

Made me feel pain 

That I thought would never end

But somehow I made it through

I glad to have known it all

The flames that I have been through

Have made me change 

From the man I once knew

To the one I became

Forging my will

Making me strong 

Helping to restore my faith in me

I seen my life through both sides now

Through ups and downs

I have seen it all 

I have no illusions 

Of there being a change

But still I hope and keep the faith

Somehow I'll find my way

I longed to say "I love you"

And hear it said back too

Even though I knew it very well

This was a foolish and selfish thought

Not hearing it made me lonely and insane

I have made mistakes

I have stumbled and fell 

Sometimes headlong 

Into my personal hell

Darkness was what I felt

I longed to put an end to it all

Not knowing when it all would end

If there'll be light

To banish the darkness I felt

Cause the mistake I made 

Left me feeling ashamed

I wanted it all to end

People thought they knew what I felt

Telling what I should do

Never really caring to know well 

The pain and loneliness I felt

Telling me that I need to change

They didn't realise 

That advice was not what I needed

Just a patient ear

To hear the pain that I felt

For companionship 

Is what I longed for 

Cause love seemed far from me

Broken and battered was how I felt 

Down in the dumps with no will to spare

But then friends came to my aid 

Love helped me find a way

Restoring the faith that I once had

They dusted me off and wiped my tears

They gave me hope, 

helped me get back to my feet

Without a judgemental word

They showed that they genuinely cared

Love embraced me and made me see

What a foolish boy I had been

Through fears and loneliness

Love was always there for me

There may have been change

But change is part of life

Is something we've got to accept 

Without a fret

Not knowing what what will happen next

Cause love gave me a reason to live 

Love gave me hope and banished despair

Showed that it will always be there

When I need it it will always be there 

I just need to reach out and it will be there

I've looked at life from both sides now

From subtle breeze to stormy clouds

From the highs and lows that I have known

I finally found way back home

Now I have no fear of the dark in me

Knowing I'll never let it conquer me

For friends and family are my support

Love will always be there for me

Always leading me on.

What is Home to you???

What is home to you?

Is it the room with four walls

And a roof overhead

That you return to everyday

To rest your weary head

After a long and tiring day?

In this you'll have several homes

We are by nature nomadic 

Moving from one place to another

Be it searching for a job

For further education 

Or the pursuit of happiness and freedom 

Renting out houses 

Buying properties

Staying as guests

Making several homes

But is this what we can truly call home?

Home is wear the heart is

It is where we feel secure and loved

It may not always be a place 

But also in a person

Home resides in our hearts 

In our minds

No matter where life takes us

We always take a bit of home with us

Cause home will remain with us forever

Helping us make wherever we may be

A little bit closer to home

Troubles may try and bring us down
When we feel lost
We can always be found

Telling us well never be alone

Cause the home in our hearts

Will make any place your home

Acceptance

One thing we all want from life is to be accepted by others, to be accepted by society. But how many of us truly accept ourselves the way we are?

They say charity begins at home, so if you want to be be accepted by others, we first need to accept ourselves the way we are. And there lies the crux of our troubles, our stress. We find it  difficult to accept ourselves for who we are, often feeling ashamed of our blemishes in life.

There's always something that we want to change about ourselves. We are never truly comfortable in our own skin. There are endless list of wants to change, starting with weight. And this not just for women, men face it too. 

In a world that has has taken being social to a whole different level, we want to be perfect. We are obsessed of fitting in, to be accepted in social circles, so much so that we are more than willing to put a false facade just to be seen as acceptable. But in doing this we are slowly steadily loosing touch with our true self.

It's not that the world is perfect. Everyone has their issues, no one is perfect. We are all imperfect, a little damaged. It it is in this imperfection that makes us perfect specimens. We are got to learn to accept ourselves the way we are, with what we have been blessed with, who we become. 

But this doesn't mean that we resign to the hands we have been dealt with. It means that we need to take the gifts which we have been blessed with and put them to use the way they were meant to be.

Acceptance is a way of connecting to your true self, who you are truly are. An honest view of yourself. And if you are brave enough you will let others see who you truly are. So Let acceptance begin with you. Others will slowly follow.

Letting Go

Letting go is probably the hardest thing we'll ever do. 

Cause we are the hopelessly hopeful, 

never knowing when to let go, 

continuing to grasp at straws, at thin air, 

believing that there's something. 

Refusing to accept things 

are long since gone. 

We continue to hold on tight 

to the point that it's not right.

Refusing to accept 

that things no longer exist. 

What was once alive and kicking 

is now dead and gone. 

Now it's time we bury it and move on. 

We continue to live in 

the glory and tragedies of the past, 

refusing to acknowledge the present. 

We wail and cry of past pains

never truly trying to heal in the present.

We love the sweet pain of sorrow. 

Cause we like a little self-pity, 

a little sympathy, 

to stroke our egotistical heart. 

We continue to hold on, 

like that stubborn tyre 

that refuses to disappear, 

no matter what we try to do. 

We may sing let it go, let it go, 

and quote the benefits of doing so. 

But when it comes to life, 

we can never let go.