Life from both sides

As I stand at the cusp

At the turn of another year

To grow a year older

Never knowing if I'll be wiser

Even though I know I am not 

Turning a new leaf

Cause I don't know what all to change

The year gone by

 Took me through hell

Made me feel pain 

That I thought would never end

But somehow I made it through

I glad to have known it all

The flames that I have been through

Have made me change 

From the man I once knew

To the one I became

Forging my will

Making me strong 

Helping to restore my faith in me

I seen my life through both sides now

Through ups and downs

I have seen it all 

I have no illusions 

Of there being a change

But still I hope and keep the faith

Somehow I'll find my way

I longed to say "I love you"

And hear it said back too

Even though I knew it very well

This was a foolish and selfish thought

Not hearing it made me lonely and insane

I have made mistakes

I have stumbled and fell 

Sometimes headlong 

Into my personal hell

Darkness was what I felt

I longed to put an end to it all

Not knowing when it all would end

If there'll be light

To banish the darkness I felt

Cause the mistake I made 

Left me feeling ashamed

I wanted it all to end

People thought they knew what I felt

Telling what I should do

Never really caring to know well 

The pain and loneliness I felt

Telling me that I need to change

They didn't realise 

That advice was not what I needed

Just a patient ear

To hear the pain that I felt

For companionship 

Is what I longed for 

Cause love seemed far from me

Broken and battered was how I felt 

Down in the dumps with no will to spare

But then friends came to my aid 

Love helped me find a way

Restoring the faith that I once had

They dusted me off and wiped my tears

They gave me hope, 

helped me get back to my feet

Without a judgemental word

They showed that they genuinely cared

Love embraced me and made me see

What a foolish boy I had been

Through fears and loneliness

Love was always there for me

There may have been change

But change is part of life

Is something we've got to accept 

Without a fret

Not knowing what what will happen next

Cause love gave me a reason to live 

Love gave me hope and banished despair

Showed that it will always be there

When I need it it will always be there 

I just need to reach out and it will be there

I've looked at life from both sides now

From subtle breeze to stormy clouds

From the highs and lows that I have known

I finally found way back home

Now I have no fear of the dark in me

Knowing I'll never let it conquer me

For friends and family are my support

Love will always be there for me

Always leading me on.

Moments

We often complain

That moments that matter

Are far and few

And often fleeting 

Never giving us a chance

To savour it

To bask in it

To enjoy it

What we never truly understand 

Is that every moment matters

Every second

Every minute

Every hour

Every day

The tiniest detail is what matters

We are often wrapped up

In our so called busy life

That we let so many moments pass us by

Without ever noticing

Or acknowledging it

Every moment needs to be celebrated 

Not just those big ones

Every triumph, no matter how small

Needs to be celebrated 

Cause it is these moments 

that come together 

To make a cohesive whole

We may never ever have 

bards or ministerial 

Put these moments in verse or songs

But these moments live on with us forever

Etched in our heart for all eternity

These moments may be small and tender

Passionate beyond lust 

Or the craving of the flesh

But these moments are genuine 

Pure and true

Strengthening the bonds 

That binds us together

That keeps us sane

These moments are our prized possession

Our ray of sunshine

On a dark and gloomy day

That what keeps us strong

Fills us up with hope and faith

Though time may pass us by

These moments linger on

Like a tattoo on our mind

Imprinting on us

Ours for all eternity

Though we may come and go

The se moments that form memories

Will linger on for all eternity 

Me: A Work In Progress

I am a work in progress

Constantly changing 

Constantly evolving 

Never truly satisfied 

With what I have achieved 

Don't get me wrong

I accept myself the way I am

With all the abilities

I have been blessed with

But I will always strive to be

Better than my best

It's not that I want to be perfect

I know that I can never be one

To me perfection is a myth

 But all i want is 

To be better than myself

The skills that I have been given

Was never meant to be salted

Never meant to be preserved

They were meant to be nurtured 

To be multiplied, to be grown

My life has never been perfect

In fact it is far from perfect

I'm a perfectly imperfect specimen 

A bit damaged, a bit broken

But I accept myself, my life 

The way I am, who I am

I accept the choices I've  made

Whether they have been

Right or wrong, good or bad

They have all taught me

Made me stronger

Moulders me and shaped me

I don't label myself

Based on my preferences

Based on who I choose to love

I may hurt or suffer heartbreaks

But I will always continue to love

Believe in the power of love

And hope for love

I may stumble and my fall 

But with every stumble

With every fall

I know I shall rise again

Cause every stumble and fall

Has something to teach me

And with each of them I have grown

I know I will never be complete

Cause life has so much to teach

And I will continue to learn

Till the day I die 

And even then 

There'll be something

For me to learn

I really don't know what

And I don't know how

But I shall learn 

A constant work in progress