Of signs and miracles

We are always looking for a miracle, a sign that would help us believe, that would show us the way to give us hope, reinforce our shaken faith. When all is lost and there’s nothing we can do, there’s that hope for that one miracle to pull us through, a hope against all hope.

When we know not what to do, and are lost with no answer, perplexed what to do, we look for a sign to show us the way, to guide us where we need to go, what we need to do. Something small, nothing grand, is all we need to keep us going, to believe, to hold on to our beliefs, our faith. We seek a miracle, a healing, so that we may see and believe.

We seek miracles and signs and healing never truly realising each moment is a miracle in itself, each moment is a sign, a sign that we need to continue living, never giving up, never giving in, to continue to believe, and that time is the greatest healer, healing wounds, mending the brokenness in us.

I remember attending a healing service with mum and aunt, who was in the advanced stages of cancer. It is not that I believed in the healing, but I knew that it would give her hope in her darkness and despair, in her pain. And as the preacher came to bless her, she gave them a blank stare, and when they tried to make her stand she winced in pain, and let out a little shriek. I instinctively rushed to her side. And wheeled her out of the church, where I had people asking me if she was cured.

I am not too sure in what way was she cured, what way was she healed. A few weeks later she passed way, after living almost three and half years with cancer, longer than other people who had it at her stage. In a way you could say death was the healing touch she required, the soothing balm from the pain, cause no matter how much I tried to get her through another day I was only prolonging her pain. It may have hurt, but it was for the best.

No matter what, I have continued to believe in miracles and signs. But then I also believe that they are everywhere and happen all the time. We just need to know where to look and how to interpret them. But the  let not your beliefs, your hope, your be anchored on them. Just continue living cause life in itself is the greatest miracle, living it is the greatest sign.